How sad is the day when you come to realize that you have forgotten about everything good that you have, for something that you want? All I have ever wanted in life was to be a wife and mother; and, while I have the mother part, being a single mother wasn't on the list. I have been searching for a love greater than the love I have for my son and my family. I keep searching for "the one" to fill the space in my heart and that of my child, all the while, continually getting disappointed every time. Tyler must tell me a thousand times a day how much he loves me and needs me. Why is that not enough for me? What is it, that makes me forget about the joy he takes in just being with me?
Today, I decided that we were going to go get lunch and then go play a round of miniature golf at Funntasia. We went to Applebee's for lunch and when the waiter brought the ticket...Tyler pulled out his wallet and said, "I got this momma." ha ha... he pulled out $4 and the waiter laughed. I told him to put his money up and that I would get it. Then we had a fun afternoon playing under the hot sun on the golf course. It is then, that it hit me, as my hot little boy lay passed out in the seat....that i fell in love all over again, with what I already have.
4 comments:
God will put "the one" in front of you when it's time. Be patient. I can imagine it's not easy being a single mom but Tyler will really look up to you when he's older knowing you raised him alone. I know I think the world of my mom raising us alone for a long time by herself.
Thanks Amber...
awwww...that brought tears to my eyes...so sweet. Love you tissy.
That is such a beautiful post! You are richly blessed in your little man who loves you so much!
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